Sunday, October 22, 2017

What if this is the last...

With the first baby it seemed like everything was a blur.  I always thought I would have 4 kids, or more, but after two difficult (but not life threatening) pregnancies I find myself wondering if this might be our last baby.  Other health concerns have come along, and now I am unsure as to whether or not there will be a Baby #3.  We are very blessed with two beautiful, healthy, wild boys.  But now, as my second maternity leave comes to an end - I find myself thinking - what if this will be the last maternity leave I have?  My last fall at home with the boys?  What if this is my last snuggle in bed with a baby?  What if this is the last time my little boy will crawl on top of me and rest his head on my chest, free of any worries, lost in a peaceful sleep?

The days go by so quickly.  Yes, I am exhausted.  Yes, my body has taken a bit of a beating.  Yes, I would enjoy a night of uninterrupted sleep.  But really - what I really, truly want - is more time.  More snuggles.  More kisses.  More baby noises.

Soon this will be over - and they will grow into a new phase.  We will make new memories.  But this is a special time.  Slow down.  Slow.  Down. 


  1. I know it is hard to imagine now, but when they are grown, you will enjoy them just as much. The relationships change, but the pleasure is the same. All three of my sons are gone but yesterday we received emails from two of them. They both live in different cities but are sharing a ride back home for Thanksgiving. They were talking back and forth to each other and emailed us copies so we will know their arrival time. We laughed at how they teased each other in the email. My husband and I talked about it all day.

    I am busy cooking their favorite dishes, preparing the details. When they arrive, it will be as if they never left.

    Don't be discouraged, the future will change, but it will still be good.

    Jeannie @ GetMeToTheCountry

    1. I love what you said about cooking their favourite dishes. I love cooking, and it has always been a dream of mine to have a house full of family and friends and making delicious homemade meals for them. I am sure your boys are very lucky to have such an industrious mom!!